News, bad?

I don't know how I feel about it, the news sometimes, it's good. But, most of the time its like watching the saddest movie in the world. Seriously, sometimes it is horribly scary, and depressing. But, the worst part is (and I know this is common sense people) its all true. Well, for the most part.
So its not like you can say, "oh that will never happen to me" Because, the news usually doesn't make stuff up like that, and some of the stuff you hear on the news, is un-believable about rape, and children killing their parents, shootings at schools, people dying for what they believe in and other things.
Sometimes, the news can give you good advice, but how are you supposed to tell if it's a day where you are going to hear something valuable, or it is a day where you are going to be terrified to step outside of your own house.
I think that the news puts fear in people, sometimes a good fear, but sometimes an irrational fear. Yah know, maybe it never really used to be safer "back then" maybe it was just we weren't as technologically advanced, as we are now, and the bad stuff never really got around town. All the rapist weren't registered, on computers that never existed..and know that fear of knowing all of this has made (some) parents extremley protective, which some parents should be.. but to a certain extent. I like at home, I am 18, and I am still not allowed to walk to the park by myself, and sometimes not with other people, not really am I not allowed (well actually that's kind of it) but like my parents "don't feel comfortable with it" lol, and I am 18!!!
I have faith in my God, and the police officers (mainly because I know an amazing one that doesn't joke around on the job, and actually does the right things) that I will be safe, and even if something horrible happens, I know where I am going.. so the afterlife wont be horrible, or unkown.
Now, some of you that know me, might be saying WHAT?!?! You worry and are scared alot.. well that's true, I am really trying to work on the worrying right now.. as for the clowns, I can't explain it, and I don't think I can fix it either, the ocean.. ehh. Just ehh. The main reason I am scared of the ocean, is because of sharks, and yes I know where I am going if I get eaten alive, I would just prefer to not die that way.. so to sum it up, I am not scared of death, I am scared of the way I will die.
The news I think gives me more ideas, and more things to be scared of in a way of dying, and maybe I wouldn't know about them if I didn't watch the news :)
I also watch scary movies, unless I find out that they are based on true events, then I think hey this wont really ever happen, (even though some of the stuff could), and crime scene shows, usually aren't based on true events.. but they are just plain addicting.

So I think, I might just give up the news.
Any votes? Let me know.

Old Friends :)

So, it's funny how God has a plan for your life, everyday.
Today, I got friend requested by one of my oldest childhood BEST friends, she did live next door, and we were seriously like see everyday, tell each other EVERYTHING best friends.
It was weird because God brought her up in my mind, to apologize for some childhood things, just hurt feelings and such. &then soon after she requested me on facebook.
We used to have imaginary friends, that were bestfriends too, and it was cute.. when me and Harley (thats my friends name) were arguing, we would talk through our imaginary friends, like we refused to talk to each other, so our fights went something like this
My imaginary friend was always named Gaution, don't ask..lol werid name I know, and I don't remember what hers was. But, we will call him Ryan.? lol.
Me- Gaution tell Harley I am mad at her
Harley- Ryan, tell Mandy that I don't care!

Lol, its pretty cute now that we look back at it. :)

Facebook is such a great idea, I am glad that I found Harley today. Glad that I can be in touch with her again, glad that I can remember when the worst things were scraped knees. Glad that we can share new stories&remember all the old.

I'm just glad.. lol.

Ipod Rennovation.

So, I'm getting rid of all the "bad songs" on my ipod..
Mainly, songs that talk about sex, or have cuss words in them.
I think that people should be able to look through my ipod, and tell that I am different then everyone else, people should be able to randomly play my songs, and see that I have no songs about sex or cussing, as a Christian I feel like that is something that should happen. Also, it's not good for me to listen to that trash anyways. I wont have to listen to cuss words, or sex anymore. Which I think will please God and ultimately help me out.
Now, don't get me wrong, I don't mean that I ONLY have Christian songs on my ipod, or that I will anyways, because that's not the truth. There are some secular songs that I honestly feel like don't hinder my growth as a Christians, and those are the songs that do not cuss, and do not talk about sinful things. This is not to mean that I don't like Christan music, because I do love it, and have a lot of it on my ipod, it may even be the majority. It's just there are other genres and songs that I like too.
However, some of the songs, are actually kind of hard to let go, I like the songs.. I just feel that I should give them up, God sacrificed a lot for us, including his only son, and what kind of a Christian I am if I can't even sacrifice a song for him.
I'm not saying that if you have songs like these on your ipod that they are bad for you and they make you less of a Christian than me, hey its whatever floats your boat. Whatever you classify as a Christian is what you should do, I just felt like this was something that I need to do to make myself feel better about God, and I felt like it makes him happier.

January, 19th 2010

1. MIDOL<3
2. Tessie's smile
3. Phone calls with Jeffrey
4. Having deep conversations with Natalie
5. Watching and hearing about the influence I have on other peoples lives
6. Hanging out with my family.
7. Seeing Aunt Cindy
8. Aunt Cindy's &Uncle Pauls apple cake.
9. Random fun healthy snacks with April.
10. Encouraging words from the big brotherr.

What are your top favorite things about Tuesdays..

Janary 18th 2010

So there is one incredible memory about today.
Today is mine and Jeffs 7 month :) i love him.
However that memory was short lived, do to a certain evil mailbox.

More like Mondays most horrific memory.

January 16 2010

So, today there wont be much sleeping which will probably make me extra sleepy.
Lets see, this week at work I worked ALOT more than usual because I was covering for the full time tech that went to Hawaii, I was jealous of her, and tired all the time.. but I got BANK this week so it is all good. I also wanted to shoot someone a good amount of the time that I was working with them.. but oh well work is work.
SO that will all lead to a super sleepy weekend.
On top of all of that the RAVENS! play their second (after kicking some patriotic booty) playoff game tonight at 8:00 which means I will be up late with my family either being really happy or really really MAD. I don't know which way the game is going to go yet.. but hopefully I will be happy.
So tomorrow, during church I will probably be trying to fight to keep my eyes open, and struggle to not sleep.. we'll see how that goes.
<3

January 15th 2009

The best teaching bible verse that I think I could ever find. :)
"Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from him"- Psalms 127:3

OKay..

So, really, I haven't written in forever.. like seriously forever.
My cousin Josh is in rehab now, which is actually amazing considering what me and him have been through (he has a heroin problem, and is now finally getting treated which is amazingg)
I have become addicted to reading, and addicted to coffee/tea.
My cousin is very sick, she has pneumonia, but I have faith. Please pray for healing.. God can do anything.
Church is amazingg, I have found myself in a deep connection with all of my small group girls, and I love each and everyone of them whole-heartedly.. which lol. I don't know if this makes me sound like a horrible person or not.. but I did not see happening, lets face it, they were a group full of middle school girls, and very annoying. But, now I love them.
Me&Jeff have been amazing, we have promised each other to stay pure.. which is hard for todays life.. we have even promised eachother, and other people, that we wont make out until we're married. Thats going to be hard, beacuse sometimes it just happens, but I know that with Gods help, me and him can do anything.
Money is still a big issue for us, Dad is going to court for it soon, Idon't know that much about it.. but he might be getting sued soon, and I don't know why..but that's what he is going to court for.. I don't understand how you could get sued about money.. for money.. but okay.. lol.
College starts back up soon yay, these classed shouldn't be all that hard.
I wrote a devotional for church.. once Jason like prints it out.. I guess I could put it on here.

I am going to go.
have a great day.

p.s. cinnamon does not dissolve in tea.. its kinda nasty.

Tessie Bess

January 12th 2010 (012)
I watched Tessie(youth pastors daughter), and I think that this is the cutest picture everr.
She also said my name for the first time today..
but it was more like "Andy" which is fine to.. lol and she gave me a bunch of kisses.. it was a good day :) she is sweet(when she wants to be)!

Hannah Banana

January 11th 2010 (011)
My lovely Hannah Banana! She is so pretty I love her.
:) part of the family tradition is Monday nights with the Eslicks. :) Everytime is a blastty blast.