Thursday, October 29, 2009

OD on...

This is so sad.
I don't even know what to post.
There are so many things going on in my mind right now, I am overwhelmed and I am confused.. and I am stressed. I didn't even know what to call my post.
I failed a quiz today.. which is not like me at all, I am so dissapointed in myself.

I am so distracted by everything that has happened this week that I don't think I can take another day of school.. I can't focus. The weather isn't helping.. which is a lot for me to say because I like the rain. I just haven't liked it recently..

I'm worried about not having enough money to pay for tuition.. in classes that I am not doing so hott in. I guess the best part is I only really need to take one of each class so it's not like I have to go in depth, in any of these classes. Except my education classes.. but thats not a bad thing because I am doing good in them.

I just hate how almost everywhere I turn there is more stress, and more questions. I wish I could have done something more.. something more to show Walter what he would be missing out on.

All of this is so hard to digest.. I almost feel like I am kind of just here.. almost a speck floating in all of my stress.. not being able to take it in.. just to float around in it.. endlessly where things just keep adding.

I know that I need to pray.. and I have been.. but the stress isn't going away. I am so distracted by other things.. I just. :\ hmph.. this is all horrible.

Im going to go and study now.. at least try.


  1. one day, one hour, one moment at a time. Find your center (God) and breath through it. He is here for you. Stress doesn't just go away, you have to move and bend and grow stronger. I believe you can do it!
    Just take your time.

  2. thanks.. I'm trying.. and it sucks.. but I really am trying.