venting.

So I am going to warn you.. if you don't just like hearings peoples frustrations, and not knowing what they are actually about.. then stop reading now.
This post is just purely to try and help me sleep tonight.
Now that that's out of the way. I am sooooo frustrated! Goooodnesss.

I thought I was going to have a nice quiet night, sleep early.. you know be nice and ready for my exercise in the morning.
But no..

I just really don't like it when people expect you to bend backwards for them.. and then don't budge a little, people that see things only through one light, and think that there is no other right than the right that that think. People that look at other people and get frustrated and angry that they don't believe the same thing that you do. People that talk about you behind your back, when you choose not to agree with them, or support the sin that they are falling into. When people make you feel bad for having your own opinion. When people drive and drive and drive and drive to get you to say something, that they want you to say, but you don't want to say. &then when you don't say it they throw it in your face.

&What makes me the most angry.. is when all that is coming from family. &when all that happens, they automatically assume that it is because you don't love them. And, that you are not happy that they are happy.

UGHHHH I AM SCREAMING RIGHT NOW IN TYPING.. if you onlyyyyy knew.

This is tearing me up, I want it to be over, and I want my family to all love each other, I want my family to just.. be on one side.. I want my family members to stop trying to turn people against me. :\

I want room to breath, It's not like I did anything wrong, I just have a different opinion, and I don't understand.

If you could just pray that I will have patience in dealing with this situation, and that I will have Godly words to say, and Godly opinions to stick to.

Because right now.. I'm getting sick of my own family turning against me, beacuse I have Christian opinions, and don't agree with DC. As bad as it sounds.. it would be sooo much easier to just throw in the towel, and give them what they are looking for so all of this family drama can stop.

But I want to be better than that.. and it is a struggle, so I just need the strength to not throw in the towel, and to stand by the undying truth that I believe in..


Until next time&hopefully a happier post.