To teach, is to inspire.

**these pictures are not mine, they were found while looking through flickr.com**

To learn and never be filled, is wisdom; to teach and never be weary, is love.
~unknown



I have a longing to impact lives, a longing to teach.


I can't explain it, but it is one of the deepest desires of my heart. I know it dosen't pay well. But, that doesn't matter to me. It doesn't matter to me, that I will ALWAYS have homework to do for the rest of my life. That doesn't matter at all, the only thing that matters is the children.


Being able to see the smile, a child shows when you help them understand something. Being able to watch a child grow. Being able to give a child someone to confide in and someone to trust in, if they don't have that at home. Being able to create, and organize. Being able to get the title of 'favorite teacher'


Today, it is all that I have been able to think about, but I am not sure why. It's not like tomorrow I am going ot become on.. It's ust God decidede to put it on my heart. I cannot wait for my future that God has planned for me. Just imagine, getting one og those gifts!! Or an apple. :) CANNOT wait.

wednesdaysss!

I wish, that I will be able to learn photoshop easily, and it wont overwhelm me... hah thats a pretty high hope!!!
But, none the less, I CANNOT wait ;)

2 things

1. Thing 1, yesterday at work. I was told by a staff member (that sounds odd) co-worker, or person I work for.. I am really not sure. Anyways, they told me that they (as a team) are thrilled that I am working here. Thrilled that I fill the spot perfectly, and that I am a great addition to the work place.
That was just music to my ears. To be in a place where people are nice, where there is no cussing, and there is just nice people, that are funny and you can joke with, and are truly there for you. Makes all the difference in the attitude that you have when you go to work. I have not dreaded getting up at 6:30 in the morning once to come to this job. And, if any of you know me.. I LOVE sleep, so not caring.. is saying something!

2. Thing 2, I AM GOING TO BE GETTING PHOTOSHOP. Oh my goodness, I am so excited.. and I promise that this will only make blog reading more exciting for all of you. I promise to look up ideas, and tutorials, so that I can edit this weeked. And post some at the beginning of next week. And, I promise to be ecstatic while I do it :)

Have a greattt day!

days like these

Because, it is days like this,that make me smile.
Days that make me wanna live life the fullest.
Days that make me feel so happy that I am here.
Days that make all the stress, and worries go away. And allow me to just enjoy days, those specific days, like these.

Today was a day that I spent part of with my little cousin, my light. My main reason for believing there is a God. She is my angel, and she has truly saved me from myself. And, I believe that God placed her in my life to do just that.

And days like these allow me to remember that, to remember that and to take it all in and eat it all up.

In case you were wondering, this beautiful girls name. It is Maylin, a pretty name for a pretty girl.:)

&because she has inspired days like these, there will be a full blog about her, my angel. My little one who inspires days like these.


Days when you get bugged SO MUCH to play outside, then you just run out to stop the begging, and forget to put on your shoes.


Those oh so messy first sloppy joe days, where you know you have to eat outside, beacuse it is just that stinking messy. Oh and did I forget to mention that she is two, going on three.. yes messy! But, no complaints here taterbug loves to eat outside:) smiles all the way.


Did I mention that this was a messy day? :)


Days when you can't get enough milk days, due to the intense playing outside. And days where you cannot get enough of those flowers days.


Days where after playing outside, where all you do is lay bakc and answer millions of "whats dat mandy, what's dat" questions, with the simple reply of "oh, yup" just beacuse they make you smile.


It is days like these, and only days like these that can invoke such a beautiful smile.

it is days like these, and only days like these, that make you feel complete, happy, and amazing. It is days like these that can take your mind off of tomorrow, and allows you to just worry about today, this hour, this minute, this second.It is days like these that I live for :)

craft crazy

Needless to say, within the few short days I have not had to worry about studying for finals (thanks to being out of school for the summer:D) I have been reading blogs, blogs and more blogs.
my favorite kind of blogs, are the ones that teach you how to make things, like the do it yourself blogs, oh how I love them so!!! The best part is when you go to really crafty blogs, and they feature other crafty blogs. So then, you have a gillion blogs, that you can link to, and then you can look at that sites favorite blogs, and the majority of the time they will have some extra creative blogs on that list. So, you subscribe to all of them, and before you know it... you have a million blogs that you are following that have delicious crafts that you could just sink your teeth into.

While doing this, I found a MILLION great things to keep my occupied this summer. One of which, I just entered a contest to to a site that makes, scrapbook looking necklaces, with pictures. You may remember me talking about them in one of my posts, anywho. I figured out how to make them myself:). And, it is ALOT cheaper then having ot purchase them already made, so I am thrilled about this find!! &I cannot wait to make some, which I think I will be making a gift here soon for Jeffrey, a keychain with it on there, so I am SOO excited about that.

Needless to say, my subscription list, has nearly trippled. With all kinds of amazing craft sites, sites that commonoly offer give aways. Oh man, the blog world is never ending. Always something else to find. Thank you so much April for getting me involved.:) I'm getting kind of addicted though, therefore any addiction, I blame on you ;)

Prayers?

I just thought that I would take the time to blog on half of one of my faovirte bloggers.
Alos, to suggest that if you don't already follow her, you should. Her story is truly life changing, and everytime I read one of her stories, about how thankful she is for her life, my heart and my life are touched.

No, I do not personally know this girl. But through reading her blogs, and sharing in her heartbreaks, and smiles. I do feel as though I know her. She is an excellent writer, and her stories truly do touch every piece of my heart in a different way.

Who is she? Yeah.. almost forgot that part. She goes by the name of nienie, and you can visit her blog here if you would like to.

If you are going to start following, I might as well give you a recap on all of the posts up to this one (That I am awar of any ways)

Nienie has a family of 5 I believe, including her, her husband and her three children. One day, and I am not sure why they did, but nienie and her husband were on a private plane. This plane crashed and ignited in flames. Miraculously they both had a chance to survival. Nienie was in a coma for 3 months, and thanks to many prayers woke up. Both the people have burn marks on their skin. However, Nienies is the worst. She has undergone a number of surgeries, she has a skin graff on her back, and the docotrs expand it, to expand "good, unburnned skin" that will then be moved to her neck. This is an intricate surgery, that Nie was not supposed to have until the end of june, I believe. HOwever, due to infection she is in the surgery now. This surgery could produce another a coma. Please pray for Nie and her family, in her time of need.

In my mind though, there are no worries, with a person as influential as her, God needs her to be on this earth, to spread the good news. Pray for the heartsof the family that they stay strong in this time.
:)you really should follow, she is amazing.

ANOTHER giveaway

From on of my favorite blogs (make it and love it)sponsers.
The jewlery is just darling, honestly you should go and check them out. They are the perfect idea for a gift.. or just something for you to treasure.
I justlove the idea of lockets, but sometimes they bother me beacuse people don't always get to see the picture&then people are always asking you whatis inside.. and yeah.

But this is a smart way to the locket. it is a picture with glass around it so that you don't have to spend time opening it and all, and people can just see what you are wearing.

Also, something they have that I think is neat, is the option to put it on a keychain.. so you could even get something for the boys:)

I hope you enjoy!!!

Lord above.

I just can't believe that I am going to be a college sophomore.
Honestly.. where did the time go?
How did I manage to pay for school, with only three hours of work (so glad that has changed!) College, wow college.
A place that I was doubting I would ever get to..
Just wowww. I am really proud of myself.. I have managed to get good grades.. Just so proud of myself.

I have learned so much about my life, about my world as an adult.
1.Things aren't always easy (well duh).
2.When things arem't always easy, you and I have a great God to hold tightly to, and he is never failing.
3.Some relationships come, and some go.. and you have to make that decision yourself, not by what people tell you.
4.You make your bed you lie in it, no one is cleaning up your messes now.
5.However bad things are for you, there is one person out there who has it worse.
6.You can change your whole day by waking up and sayins "Today I will be Happy"
7.If you set your mind to it you can do anything.
8.Its better, and more rewarding to work on today, then it would be to work on yesterday, beacuse that has passed.
9.People of this world will let you down, but God will never.
10.Make your own self. It is better to beautiful in originality then to be a beautiful duplicate.

There is tons more that I have learned.. but I have to make some phone calls:) So, I will indeed blog later..
Church bulletins to fold today.. ohhhh joy. Hah.

I'm a geezer

So.. yesterday, more like last night I went to my brothers orchestra concert.. which just happened to be in the good ol' North County. Which, if you did not know, I graduated there last year.
And granted it has only been a year.. but I went in and everytthing felt so small, and I felt sooo old. Knowing that I was the college there, just made it worse. Not that it was a bad thing.. it just made me feel even older.

Then of course, I started reminiscing on my highschool years. And again, it's not like it was five years ago or a gillion or anything.. but I am not there anymore.. so its a big shocker to me.

Anyways I started thinking about how highschool is always one of the best times, and worst times of your life.. mixed together, and jumbled.

It made me sad to think that I can never go back.. and do it over again. Because as hard as it seemed, with bullies, and with no freedom. Highschool was easy it waws sooo simple!!! you didn't have to pay for school, which means, unless you are a dork like I was.. you didn't have to pass, you didn't care if you passed or not.

You always got to walk in the hall with your group of friends, and you got to connect with your teachers, which doesn't really happen in college.. at least with me.. I just kind of go in and out.

Anyways-- young ones that are still in highschool (and I know you hear this from your parents all the time.. but trust me I mean this.) don't rush it, take your time. You will truly have your best days, and for the worst.. they will come and they will go. Cherish the time that you have, because this is when it's easy.. where you can worry about what color the boy you like is wearing. And yuo can pass notes in class professing you love for eachother, these are the days that you will remember forever, so make the best of them. Oh, and I guess you should make sure that you work hard for your grades too.

SPEAKING OF WORK- make sure you save for a cute car:)

oh mann!

well for starters.. let me say that I don't want to have a baby until, you know I get married and all.
But when I see cute baby things.. I just wish that my life could fastforward a little and then pause.. so that I could have a baby.. I just CANNOT wait. :)

anywhooo. I found this little cute blanket. and if you know me.. well you will know why I love it so much.. and if not.. I LOVE ladybugs, I think that they are so sweet and special, and beautiful.. and look at what I found.. oh man.. I am half tempted to just buy it for me..lol.



isn't itjust the sweetest thing:) I think that it is ADORABLE!!! :) they better stil habe them when I get preggers!

so..

I realized that I havn't blogged about this yet.. or rreally even told anyone.. but I am looking to get a car. and I am scared.. and it is giving me tons of stress, its just such a big purchaswe.. like I have never bought something over 1,000.. and wel chances are the car that I buy will be over that.. hah.
But here is the thing that is the hardest.
With this car I can have no financial help, my family just can't contribute.. which means all of this.. is either going to have to be ALL money saved up or all a loan, which either way is a lot of money.
Now, keep in mind that if it is a loan.. I will have to make payments on that, insurance payments, gas money, and my school payments.. it's just going to be a lot.

And, I don't wanna get caught up to where.. I can't make payments.. I don't want this to be stressful but it is. I know that God has a plan for me and that it will work out in the end.. I just wish I didn't have to actually live through all of this hard money stuff.. hah and I know that that is kind of a cheating but a girl can dream now can't she?

And yes, I do have a great job, an amazing job.. where I am working a lot more, and making more than I did at my other job and for that I am thankful. But I can't help to worry what if it wont me enough.. and money like this scares me.. I am sure that some of you may know why.

I know that I need to pray about it, and something will come to me.. I just like to get on and vent.. so hah. I hope you enjoy it as well as I do.. God bless:)

contest.

So, as I get more and more addicting to blogging, I keep noticing more and more of one of the perks that blogging, and reading blogs offer:)

Here is a greattt free giveaway from confessions of a paper freak, it's really a great site.. and if you don't wanna enter in the contest you should at least check it out..
SO what is it??
Well they are giving away free jewlery, I will post a picture shortly, revisit this blog if you would like to see. :)
anways, I will give you the ling to her blog post, so that you can register if you would like, there are tons of chances and tons of things to do so that you can get a free piece of jewlery, and I PROMISE you are not going to want to miss it, this jewlery is BEAUTIFUL, and to me the best part is that you can get them personalized, get them to say whatever you want them to say:)

oh, and did I mention it is a chrisitian site, what's better than knowing that you are helping out with something that you believe in:)

Right, here is her blog post.. almost forgot.

swagger wagon..hah.

This is funnnnnnyyyy, Uncle Paul showed me this tonight, and it forreal made me crackkk up.:) it is funnny, hope you enjoy:)

makes you think twice about owning one huh?

Awesome Rythmic Gymnast

So honestly, this might be the coolest thing that I have ever seen in my life.. like really? How do you even learn to do this kind of thing.. and it looks like it is a bowling ball, I don't know if they say what it is in the video because I had to watch it with the volume down.. but it's really cool. I couldn't even imagine how much time and work you would have to put into this to make it look as easy as she has.

sooo much change

:) oh my word.. so many things have happned since I have last blogged.. I quit my new job, and started a new one.. a new one working at my church.. it is INSANE, i have been praying for this and praying for this.. and I feel like for the first time in my life, this is a prayer that God has answered.. and it happened just as I wanted it to. I work there, it feels so good to say that I worked there, and it is even more amazing to know that I ALWAYS have a God that will come through..

The other thing is.

well I will just have to wait to show you because I am not going to blog about it unless I can post a picture of it.. and lets just say it is a BIG deal.. something that I have been waiting for, and something that I am scared to do.. but I will post later..
sorry for the tease:)

:) ello loves.

So there hasn't been much reason lately to blog. I've just been going through life.. finishing up my first year of college, how insane :p. I will have successfully completed one year of college on the 20th:) yayy me.

I have been making lots of things lately, I made a white board, and I made my mother a picture frame, and a letter for mothers day, I will post pictures after you know.. she opens it and all.

I also made the scrapbook page for mine and Jeffs one year, can't believe that it is coming up in june.. thats insane to me!!
This year will be 11 months, it doesn't seem like it has been that long.. but then again it does.. who knows its weird. All I know is that I am thankful.

I am addicted to sundresses, like literally there should be a convention for this. I cannot stop ooing, and ahhhing, and one. And it is really hard.. because sometimes it puts a hurtin' on the bank account. It stinks though.. because I will find such great deals, and then I feel like I need to buy them. lol. Like a couple of days ago, I was in wet seal.. and I never knew this.. but they have sales that are like buy one and get one for a penny now how do you turn that down?

But, I am going to go stumble, and maybe I will find something to blog about;)

:) yayyy.

I found this awesome quote, on this awesome site called stubleupon.com and well it was awesome..
wanna see what it is?

Okay, I'll show yahhh.
"thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared."

Oh man, so I just loveloveloveee this quote, I think that it is agreat one.:) I strive every day to smile, and maybe if I strive enough, I can light the other candles around me.:)

LOVE this game.

So, this is a game I read about in a book one time.. I don't really remember the book, although I think it was Winn Dixie.. but I can't be certain so don't hold me to it.
Right, the game.

I love playing the game.. where you listen to someones voice, and then you think in your head what they would look like according to the voice that you hear.. you don't look at the person at all, beacuse that would be cheating. So then when you are done picturing the person (Think about what they are wearing, how their hair is, is it long short, and what color.. does this person have freckles- I mean you just think of everything), yah look at them. And see if you were right.

I know its kind of dumb.. but I LOVE it and I think that it is soooo much fun:)

Maybe its beacuse I study people all the time that I thihnk that it is so much fun but eitehr way I think that you should try it one day.:)

&don't worry after you play for a while you start getting better..lol.

tuesdayysss :)

1. MY FANN! because it helps to cool me off when it is sooo stinking hot out :p
2. String to make bracelets out of.. I love making bracelets..
3. Watching movies that you watched when you were little- it kinda brings those days back :)
4. Honey Nut Cherrios, its just sooo tasty, and you can add almost anything to it and it will still be tasty (It helps me to eat bananas)
5. Having songs that help you spell hard words.. like bananas, or independent. Hah. Well that last one really isn't a hard word.. I just sing it when I need to write it.
6. iPOD, they are just great things.. I mean really? They are.
7. THE WHITE SUNDRESS THAT I BOUGHT. I lovelovelovelovelovelove it and I cannot wait to wear it.. so close!
8. Being surrounded by people, that just listen&care.. like Jeff, Kait, and my Mommy:) thanks you guys! (p.s. that creepy guy from the last post just walked down the hall again)
9. Editing pictures, I just think that it is sooooo much fun.
10.VACATIONSS- we have been planning them, and I love being able to just hang out with my family.. yay:)

oy veyyy!

So, she is home.
The truth is I don't want to see her. I don't want to let her back in, it hurts being lied to and I am sick of it.. literally.
And I don't trust myself around her.. I might say something that I don't want to out of anger.

I think that it is harder the second time around. Because, for so long.. we thought she was doing great.
ANYWHOOO.
Class was cancled this morning, which normally I wouldn't mind at all. And I wont mind.. if my stinking teachers realize that they are supposed to EMAIL us when they wont make it to class, that way we know.. not to come to class.
So, now I am up here.. doing nothing.

It gives me time to blog which I am greatful for, but at the same time it gives me lots of time to think.. which I don't feel like doing with eyes all around. :) Hah.
So I think that I am just going to distract myself from other things, and I will read blogs.

I can deal with my emotions laterr, as in not around people. Thanks..lol.

Today has been a good day so far, I exercised.. which felt good, I'm tellin' yah exercise always helps when you are stressed out.

Today while I exercised so that I didn't get bored.. I watched monsters inc. &lemme just tellll you. I think that I have forgotten how amazinggggg that movie is. It is just so stinking cute. Boo just steals everyones heart I am telling you!

There has been this guy that has walked up and down the hallway SLOWLY a number of times, and like a big number of times.. its kinda creepy.. considering I am in the room by myself. I don't really like to go to the computer room where there are a billion people, I would rather keep to myself.. and type and read things by myself.

Thats how I am for the most part in school. I keep to myself.. I don't really care to have friends here, I have realized how important it is to surround yourself with Godly people, and correct me if I am wrong.. but there are not that many Godly people at AACC, hah I mean don't get me wrong.. I have freinds.. but they are just like talk to a little in class, and text if you have a question about homework kind of friends. Not like hang out all week kind of friends.

I do have friends that are unsaved, I just don't see the point in adding more.. if that makes sense.. I dunno I am not trying to sound nasty or mean.. but to me a good friend is one that you can relate to, one that you have common grounds with. One that can build you up and always encourage you to do better. One that you benefit from, and always know that they have your best interest in mind. And to me that means having friends that are in the word and are christian. In saying this.. I have no abadoned my friends that are not saved.. that just isn't my cup of tea. I just choose to stay away from making more friends that are that way for now.

I have no idea why I am writing so much, I am thinking that my brian is just full of things.. that have no order whatsoever.. which is kind of giving me a headache.. but like some of the stuff in this post is completely random. Who knows.. maybe its just my way of dealing with things.. getting my mind off the subject.. because I don't think that I need to go through this again.. I don't think that its fair.. so maybe subconciously I am blocking myself from going through it again.

Whatever it is.. it is making my blog posts kind of amusing and funny, so hey.. why not?

Oh Mondays,

Hanging out with my Mom, and my Boyfriend always makes good memories.
I love that me and my Mom, and my Boyfriend can hang out, like friends, literally chill out and watch tv or a movie together. I love having my Mom so close in my life, I love her being my bestfriend, the person that is always there no matter what.

I am so thankful for her, and I am so happy that my life has changed, and that she is now such a big part of it.
:) she is there for me through all of the hard times.
My most memorable memory for the day, is my Mom and my Boyfriend supporting me in a time where I am sad. They are really great people, that I am so lucky to be blessed with.

oh my lordyyy.

So much has happened, but there is not much at all that I want to say.
The thing that I thought wouldn't happen, happened.
However, it's odd how calm I am about it. Well I wouldn't say calm.. but I'm not scared, I am not scared what will come from it. I am not, which is different for me, and I think that a lot of it has to do with getting closer and closer to God.
Also, how ironic is it that in Verb we are talking about fear, because I know that the old me would be scared out of my mind right now for this person. But I know that it is all in Gods hands and that God will take care of it.
So I look at the situation, and I say so be it.
It's hard, its not easy. But I know that if I let Gods plan take control, then it will ultimately be for the best. Although it will be hard and heartbreaking at times, I know that God will pull through.
So, I am not scared.. but what am I? Hurt, Angry.. beyond angry. Livid, livid that I have to go through this all again, livid that drugs have to hurt my family again. Livid that my Grandmother must go through this again.. so mainly just hurt that I was lied to, and angry that she is doing it again.

Quote for the week: people will let me down, this has been proven to me time and time again, but I have a God that will not, and I hold tight to his truth without wavering.♥