so..

I realized that I havn't blogged about this yet.. or rreally even told anyone.. but I am looking to get a car. and I am scared.. and it is giving me tons of stress, its just such a big purchaswe.. like I have never bought something over 1,000.. and wel chances are the car that I buy will be over that.. hah.
But here is the thing that is the hardest.
With this car I can have no financial help, my family just can't contribute.. which means all of this.. is either going to have to be ALL money saved up or all a loan, which either way is a lot of money.
Now, keep in mind that if it is a loan.. I will have to make payments on that, insurance payments, gas money, and my school payments.. it's just going to be a lot.

And, I don't wanna get caught up to where.. I can't make payments.. I don't want this to be stressful but it is. I know that God has a plan for me and that it will work out in the end.. I just wish I didn't have to actually live through all of this hard money stuff.. hah and I know that that is kind of a cheating but a girl can dream now can't she?

And yes, I do have a great job, an amazing job.. where I am working a lot more, and making more than I did at my other job and for that I am thankful. But I can't help to worry what if it wont me enough.. and money like this scares me.. I am sure that some of you may know why.

I know that I need to pray about it, and something will come to me.. I just like to get on and vent.. so hah. I hope you enjoy it as well as I do.. God bless:)